Projects throughout the years: 52 weeks of us, 2009-2010

In October 2009 I started a 52 weeks project of self portraits with my husband. They make me so happy, I’ve started doing this every couple of years or so. Here are my favorites from our first year.

O n e
1/52, October 25, 2009
t h r e e
3/52
f o u r
4/52
t e n
10/52
f o u r t e e n
14/52
f i f t e e n
15/52
t w e n t y - s i x
26/52
t h i r t y - s e v e n
37/52
f o r t y - t h r e e
43/52
f i f t y - t w o
52/52
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Projects throughout the years: A Picture a Day 2009

2009 started out rough. What I remember most about the beginning of the year was how Shaun took care of me. My dad had just died and I felt very helpless and brokenhearted. Shaun spent a lot of the school break packing me and my cameras into the car and driving me to pretty places to distract me with photography, like he had perfectly intuited what I needed at that moment. The whole world felt different. I felt so broken, but also braver. My dad dying was (and still is) the worst thing that had ever happened in my life and I had faced it and my anxiety wasn’t so scary anymore. I spent some time wallowing in the groove on the couch created by my grief-stricken Lord of The Rings marathons, yes, but I came out stronger than ever. I also think my photography became more important, it had more purpose, I wanted to capture every single thing about my life, and preserve it forever.

January 1, 2009
January 1, 2009
January 7, 2009
January 7, 2009
January 14, 2009
January 14, 2009
January 16, 2009
January 16, 2009
January 22, 2009
January 22, 2009
January 30, 2009
January 30, 2009
163. they tumble blindly
February 3, 2009
February 16, 2009
February 16, 2009
February 21, 2009
February 21, 2009
March 18, 2009
March 18, 2009
April 3, 2009
April 3, 2009
April 4, 2009
April 4, 2009
April 16, 2009
April 16, 2009
April 27, 2009
April 27, 2009
April 28, 2009
April 28, 2009
June 10, 2009
June 10, 2009
June 12, 2009
June 12, 2009
June 16, 2009
June 16, 2009
July 4, 2009
July 4, 2009
August 1, 2009
August 1, 2009
August 28, 2009
August 28, 2009
September 5, 2009
September 5, 2009
September 23, 2009
September 23, 2009
October 9, 2009
October 9, 2009
October 13, 2009
October 13, 2009
October 30, 2009
October 30, 2009
November 13, 2009
November 13, 2009
November 18, 2009
November 18, 2009
November 22, 2009
November 22, 2009
December 11, 2009
December 11, 2009
December 14, 2009
December 14, 2009
December 18, 2009
December 18, 2009
December 31, 2009
December 31, 2009

February #cy365 ‚Äď week 7

43. where i stand
43. where i stand
44. clutter
44. clutter
45. red
45. red
46. heart
46. heart
47. striking
47. striking
48. bundled up
48. bundled up
49. blazing
49. blazing

Projects throughout the years, 365 self 2008 – 2009

I started my second 365 self portrait project on my 23rd birthday. I wrote more about 2008 on this post. ¬†I was feeling so inspired when I started this project. Then it became a strange conduit for grief. I was glad to have it, and I’m glad to have this record of one of the toughest year of my life, but it’s still hard to write about. I thought I was doing better than I was. In retrospect, most of what¬†I remember of¬†2009 was napping on the couch, watching Fellowship of the Ring over and over, and crying.

1. cos you're evil and you lie.
1/365 – August 25, 2008
16. with a wave of my hand and a well-placed moan
16/365
19. on september 12th right here, in front of the waverly
19/365
33. i'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
33/365
36. she shakes just like a willow tree
36/365
62. on and on and on
62/365 – When my dad entered the hospital.
88. i don't want to try too hard.
88/365
113.
113/365 – an hour after I found out my dad was gone.
130. i just want my chance
130/365
134. as you're folding up the shirts you hesitate
134/365
159.
159/365
164. couldnt hear a robin sing
164/365
185.
185/365
187.
187/365
188. won't you come out to play
188/365
195. Don't adventures ever have an end?
195/365
203.
203/365
247.
247/365
263.
263/365
269.
269/365
314.
314/365
326.
326/365
334.
334/365
337.
337/365
361.
361/365
363.
363/365
365.
365/365 – This was a joke, sort of, lots of the cliches that were big at the time in one photo.

February #cy365 – week 6

36. silky soft
36. silky soft
37. dual
37. dual
38. details, self
38. details, self
39. discover
39. discover
40. Pieces
40. Pieces
41. daily scene
41. daily scene
42. a dreaded task
42. a dreaded task

Projects throughout the years, A Picture a Day, 2008

2008 is a hard year to write about. We started the year at Disney World, and that was wonderful. I had just quit my job to focus on our home and my photography full time.  In October my dad entered the hospital, he never left. On December 14, 2008, he died.  Even before that, it had felt like a hard year, my anxiety was very bad.

Through all of this, I kept up a daily photo project, and in August,¬†on my 23rd birthday,¬†I started a 365 self portrait project as well (I’ll do a post about that in a bit.) I did them concurrently and didn’t miss a day of either project (though on hard days I did overlap and use one photo for both sets.) There was something therapeutic about creating something during this time, or anyway, it was a good distraction.

It’s hard for me to revisit some of these, but here are the highlights and milestones of 2008:

January 1, 2008 – Disney World!
...
February 24, 2008
1157
March 21, 2008
I have never been so keyed up
April 4, 2008
the dad
April 19, 2008 – Herbal Affair with my parents, Smena 8M 35mm
Untitled
May 1, 2008
Untitled
May 6, 2008
Untitled
May 17, 2008 – Tulsa during Mayfest
Untitled
July 4, 2008
Untitled
August 5, 2008 – OKCMOA with Shaun’s parents¬†
Untitled
August 21, 2008
Untitled
September 22, 2008 
Untitled
October 18, 2008
Untitled
October 25, 2008 – hospital wall, the day after my dad was admitted.
Untitled
November 4, 2008 – hospital laundry room.
9:17 pm
December 2, 2008
112. a picture of you
December 14, 2008 – an hour before my dad died.
Untitled
December 27, 2008 – after my dad died I wasn’t really afraid of anything anymore. we walked around town with fake mustaches on. People passing us seemed really happy about it, that was a good feeling.
Untitled
December 31, 2008 – nothing special, just the end of the set.

January/February #cy365 – week 5

29. on
29. on
30. connected
30. connected
31. texture
31. texture
32. frosty
32. frosty
33. folded
33. folded
34. coarse
34. coarse
35. rocky
35. rocky

 

January #cy365 – week 4

22. artificial light
22. artificial light
23. dappled
23. dappled
24. space
24. space
25. a favorite...
25. a favorite… space to take photos in. Anyone who has followed any of my various 365 projects over the last 9 years will recognize my corner with the great natural light.
26. angled
26. angled

 

27. curved
27. curved
28. cropped
28. cropped

Projects throughout the years: My first 365 self portrait set in 2007/2008

I started my first 365 self portrait set in 2007.  Shaun and I had just moved into a house together in October of 2006 and gotten married on January 1st. I was still working as a janitor and I was super into baking vegan cupcakes and learning to sew, two things I only dabble in now, but my main interest was still photography. I had been shooting film I could barely afford for years, and while I did have a high end point and shoot digital camera, I was feeling increasingly limited by it. The battery life was frustrating. My world was full of rechargeable AAs.  I started my 365 with an Olympus Camedia c5050z. It was a great camera, actually, but it was several years old at this point and no longer functioning reliably.

I saved up my pennies (for months!!) and bought a Canon Rebel xti in June, shortly after joining up with some very active flickr groups and discovering all of these amazing people doing 365 Days of self-portraits. I’m very grateful for everyone I¬†met¬†back then, on flickr, ¬†some of us have lost touch, but many of them are still dear friends!

That first year was more about learning what I could do and less about making what I wanted to make. I didn’t really click with¬†following The Rules of photography. My favorite photos were always based on feelings and memories.¬†But it was¬†important¬†to learn that stuff, to take what I liked, and needed, and bin the rest.

I took a lot of crappy pictures that year. I mean a lot.¬†I have been trying to sort through them on an external hard drive and it was probably my most prolific year ever. You have to take a lot of pictures to get a¬†good one when you’re still learning and I took at least 80,000 photos in 2007. I shared about 3,000 of them on flickr. I have since made a ¬†fair few of those private. The memories are¬†good, though! Going back through and culling them, revisiting them with better editing software and skills, I have found lots of shots I’m glad I didn’t delete when I dismissed them initially.

Here are some favorites, and milestones, from the original set, as I originally shared them:

051107: Day 1/365
May 11, 2007: Day 1
052807 18/365
May 38, 2007 18/366
061707 38/365
June 17, 2007 38/366
062807 49/365
June 28/ 2007 49/366
072507: 76/365
July 25, 2007 76/365 Sweet Gus. <3
091807: 131/365
September 18, 2007 131/366
092907: 142/365
September 29, 2007 142/366
102207: 165/365
October 22, 2007 165/366
122807: 232/365
December 28, 2007 232/366 My last day of work.
010108: 236/365
January 1, 2008 236/366 Our one year wedding anniversary at Disney World!
010308: 238/365
January 3, 2008 238/366
021508: 281/365
February 15, 2008 281/366
051008: 366/365
May 10, 2008 366/366

January #cy365 – week 3

I’m going to start sharing these here one week at a time, starting, well, now!

15. a treasure
15. a treasure
16. sepia
16. sepia
17. light
17. light
18. with the sky
18. with the sky
19. sidelight
19. sidelight
20. under
20. under
21. backlit
21. backlit