2009 started out rough. What I remember most about the beginning of the year was how Shaun took care of me. My dad had just died and I felt very helpless and brokenhearted. Shaun spent a lot of the school break packing me and my cameras into the car and driving me to pretty places to distract me with photography, like he had perfectly intuited what I needed at that moment. The whole world felt different. I felt so broken, but also braver. My dad dying was (and still is) the worst thing that had ever happened in my life and I had faced it and my anxiety wasn’t so scary anymore. I spent some time wallowing in the groove on the couch created by my grief-stricken Lord of The Rings marathons, yes, but I came out stronger than ever. I also think my photography became more important, it had more purpose, I wanted to capture every single thing about my life, and preserve it forever.
2008 is a hard year to write about. We started the year at Disney World, and that was wonderful. I had just quit my job to focus on our home and my photography full time. In October my dad entered the hospital, he never left. On December 14, 2008, he died. Even before that, it had felt like a hard year, my anxiety was very bad.
Through all of this, I kept up a daily photo project, and in August, on my 23rd birthday, I started a 365 self portrait project as well (I’ll do a post about that in a bit.) I did them concurrently and didn’t miss a day of either project (though on hard days I did overlap and use one photo for both sets.) There was something therapeutic about creating something during this time, or anyway, it was a good distraction.
It’s hard for me to revisit some of these, but here are the highlights and milestones of 2008:
Well, it’s been a while. After slogging through NaNoWriMo I took a bit of a holiday break from the blog…
Some of you already know, and some may have caught on from following links to my flickr, that my dad was in the hospital from October 24 through December 14th, when he passed away. It’s been really difficult to write here knowing that I would feel the need to start with this… and so I haven’t. Day by day I have gone in to more detail on flickr, little things, mostly, as well as sharing a myriad of childhood photos, if you’re interested, the link to my flickr is in the sidebar. Christmas has been, understandably, more overwhelming than usual, though I have always been lucky enough to actually like my family, receive thoughtful and extremely appropriate gifts and enjoy a relatively stress-free holiday. I don’t expect it will ever be exactly the same, but we did fairly well given the circumstances, remembering good things and enjoying each others company.
I’m not going to linger now, I just wanted to give those who don’t follow me elsewhere an update and explain my absense. I hope you’ve all had a good holiday & have a happy 2009.