Post-30 Before 30 Update: #18. Print another photo book

30 before 30 list thing that I finally did when I was 31

In December I finished and printed the book I had started working on in 2014/15 for my 30 before 30 project. The main holdup was cost, but another one was that initially the book only spanned June – December, when I got my dSLR ,and I had to hunt down CDs of photos from January – May, and then settle on the decision not to rescan film photos.

Blurb often has really wonderful coupons around Christmas, so I was able to take advantage of that and print a 404 page book with over 1000 photos for about $85.

Sifting through and editing so many photos from 2007 is what led me to make my @ten.years.ago Instagram account, where I am sharing these newly edited photos exactly ten years after I originally shot them. That’s where you want to go if you want to see the highlights from the book. I definitely plan to get started on fresh edits from my photos in 2008 later this year, though who knows when I’ll get THAT book printed!

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Projects Through The Years: 2012 in video

Remember this series? Bringing it back. 2012 was a great year. I had a photo in 5×5 magazine, we got to spend time with good friends, I had jury duty and didn’t expire from the experience, we took a mini-vacation and pretended to be tourists in our own city for our anniversary, I turned 27 and had a dinosaur themed birthday party, and I started a video project on my birthday in August that led me to shoot a few seconds of video everyday for the next year (that will be my next post in this series!)

Meet The Artist (or me, anyway)

I love art memes even though I’m not much of an artist. They’re practically the only thing that motivates me to practice. I wish I had the time to do literally everything.

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I really struggled on the dislikes. Everything I dislike pretty much comes back to “hate.” I always always take the dislikes/pet peeves/things you hate too seriously. I know I have some things I mildly dislike, but I don’t dislike those things enough to call them out? Like… olives? Not super into them, but I have been working on eating them anyway. I think of foods I dislike as a challenge. Obviously, I don’t eat meat. It wasn’t my favorite food when I did eat it, but I don’t feel strongly about disliking it. Anyway, I overthink. I think it’s fun to see those little whatever-things that people dislike. Think think think. Okay: I’m not super into war based video games, eggs, the color pink, cheap chocolate, or toe socks.

I could have gone on and on with the things I like, though! I keep thinking of things I wish I had included. Like Dinosaurs, Lego, Video Games, Gothic novels, Bullet Journals, the color orange, on and on and on. Liking things is the best, I recommend it.

Patreon: 365 journal

Hey guys!

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I started a semi-private 365 set on Patreon on January 1st at the $1 per month level. I’ve done a couple of completely private 365 self portrait/journal entry sets, just for myself/Shaun and I was toying with doing another this year but I had also been trying to come up with something fun to do with Patreon so I combined the two. I’m doing a theme every week, kind of remixing and adding to the list I wrote in 2014, because that set made me feel really happy. In addition to the 365 self portrait set I’m sharing lots of outtakes and other stuff I’ve never posted anywhere before, so even if I have a low week of 365 selfies and one sentence journal entries (and experience tells me, I will) there will be plenty of new content to look through.

I’m also hoping to edit one of my NaNoWriMo novels this year, updates, excerpts and other stuff about that will be on Patreon first, for sure.

In other news, I’ve been working on my 2016 in review photo post for a couple of weeks. It feels a little overwhelming and sad towards the end of the year and revisiting all of those feelings so soon after the fact has been a struggle for me. The past few weeks have been a Christmas vacation for me, but I hope to get back to regular blogging here next week. Thanks for a really good year on WordPress, friends. See you in a bit!

instagram: ten.years.ago

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@ten.years.ago is an instagram I made to share the photos I initially edited during my 30 before 30 for a photo book.  It has been really interesting for me to see exactly where I was ten years ago!

NaNoWriMo 2016: 50,608 words

I’ve really just been doing the bare minimum to keep on top of all of my projects this month. I’ve been vacillating between anxiety and depression. I haven’t been depressed in a while. There was a weird moment of relief, when it first hit me, because anxiety for me is caring a lot and depression is not caring at all. I’ve decided I like anxiety more, though. I can be anxious and happy, I have a lot to show for it when I’m anxious, I’ve been doing it for so many years, I’m very good at it. My depression is mean, too, it’s a voice in my head that says really nasty things to me about how nothing I do or have ever done has mattered. Anxiety tells me it all matters too much, that I can’t give up, that I just have to try harder every day. This is how I have learned to live with it. Up until this past couple of months, I was actually doing really, really well with it, the motivation to DO was there and the bad anxiety stuff was very mild, easy to dismiss, unimportant.

I had a bunch of really bad, 0 words days this month, but because I was depressed, I didn’t really care. A few days ago I was sobbing while cooking dinner, facilitated by PMS, and I think it was one of those mythical good cries. I’ve had maybe three of those my whole entire life. I said all of these things aloud to Shaun, and per usual, he made me feel better, because he’s very good at looking at the logical sides of things, and he knows me so very well. I feel like I turned a corner and things are going to get better. The next day I wrote 2,836 words on my NaNoWriMo. The day after that (yesterday) I wrote 7,108 words, passed 50k, kind of brought the bit of story I was writing to some sort of resolution and won NaNoWriMo for the 11th time.

I’m trying to take today off, but I keep mentally going over all of the things I neglected to do this past month, so good to know I’m firmly back to my anxiety, I guess. Maybe I’ll write them in my bullet journal. That usually helps.

Here are some pictures I took this month:

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