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Projects throughout the years: 52 weeks of us, take two, 2012 – 2014

I started another 52 weeks of Us in November of 2012 when I shot a photo for our Christmas card that year. These projects are some of my absolute favorites because without them, there wouldn’t actually be a lot of pictures of us together, and I try to keep them fairly candid, so it really feels like a peek back at our real life over the course of a year. In this case, it’s a little more than a year. I missed a few weeks here and there, but I decided not to give up on having a full set of 52 weeks.

The full set is on flickr, but here are my favorites:

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Day 27, June 23
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August 20
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August 31
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3. This is great!
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xmas card outtakes
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39. i love you in this way because i do not know any other way of loving but this
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Halloween 2016: A Day in The Life of a Zombie

Okay, so, things were weird in November, right? As such, I didn’t share all of my Halloween week photoshoots here! Luckily I believe in celebrating Halloween all year long (with a short break for Christmas) so this isn’t an inappropriate post for the middle of February at all.

Since I was shooting and editing and sharing the photos in real time (on my instagram!), as well as actually doing most of the things I photographed, the edits are pretty sloppy but I’m not bothered, in fact, I’m really happy with how this all turned out.

a day in the life: zombie

a day in the life: zombie

a day in the life: zombie

a day in the life: zombie

a day in the life: zombie

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Post-30 Before 30 Update: #18. Print another photo book

30 before 30 list thing that I finally did when I was 31

In December I finished and printed the book I had started working on in 2014/15 for my 30 before 30 project. The main holdup was cost, but another one was that initially the book only spanned June – December, when I got my dSLR ,and I had to hunt down CDs of photos from January – May, and then settle on the decision not to rescan film photos.

Blurb often has really wonderful coupons around Christmas, so I was able to take advantage of that and print a 404 page book with over 1000 photos for about $85.

Sifting through and editing so many photos from 2007 is what led me to make my @ten.years.ago Instagram account, where I am sharing these newly edited photos exactly ten years after I originally shot them. That’s where you want to go if you want to see the highlights from the book. I definitely plan to get started on fresh edits from my photos in 2008 later this year, though who knows when I’ll get THAT book printed!

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Patreon: 365 journal

Hey guys!

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I started a semi-private 365 set on Patreon on January 1st at the $1 per month level. I’ve done a couple of completely private 365 self portrait/journal entry sets, just for myself/Shaun and I was toying with doing another this year but I had also been trying to come up with something fun to do with Patreon so I combined the two. I’m doing a theme every week, kind of remixing and adding to the list I wrote in 2014, because that set made me feel really happy. In addition to the 365 self portrait set I’m sharing lots of outtakes and other stuff I’ve never posted anywhere before, so even if I have a low week of 365 selfies and one sentence journal entries (and experience tells me, I will) there will be plenty of new content to look through.

I’m also hoping to edit one of my NaNoWriMo novels this year, updates, excerpts and other stuff about that will be on Patreon first, for sure.

In other news, I’ve been working on my 2016 in review photo post for a couple of weeks. It feels a little overwhelming and sad towards the end of the year and revisiting all of those feelings so soon after the fact has been a struggle for me. The past few weeks have been a Christmas vacation for me, but I hope to get back to regular blogging here next week. Thanks for a really good year on WordPress, friends. See you in a bit!

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instagram: ten.years.ago

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@ten.years.ago is an instagram I made to share the photos I initially edited during my 30 before 30 for a photo book.  It has been really interesting for me to see exactly where I was ten years ago!

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NaNoWriMo 2016: 50,608 words

I’ve really just been doing the bare minimum to keep on top of all of my projects this month. I’ve been vacillating between anxiety and depression. I haven’t been depressed in a while. There was a weird moment of relief, when it first hit me, because anxiety for me is caring a lot and depression is not caring at all. I’ve decided I like anxiety more, though. I can be anxious and happy, I have a lot to show for it when I’m anxious, I’ve been doing it for so many years, I’m very good at it. My depression is mean, too, it’s a voice in my head that says really nasty things to me about how nothing I do or have ever done has mattered. Anxiety tells me it all matters too much, that I can’t give up, that I just have to try harder every day. This is how I have learned to live with it. Up until this past couple of months, I was actually doing really, really well with it, the motivation to DO was there and the bad anxiety stuff was very mild, easy to dismiss, unimportant.

I had a bunch of really bad, 0 words days this month, but because I was depressed, I didn’t really care. A few days ago I was sobbing while cooking dinner, facilitated by PMS, and I think it was one of those mythical good cries. I’ve had maybe three of those my whole entire life. I said all of these things aloud to Shaun, and per usual, he made me feel better, because he’s very good at looking at the logical sides of things, and he knows me so very well. I feel like I turned a corner and things are going to get better. The next day I wrote 2,836 words on my NaNoWriMo. The day after that (yesterday) I wrote 7,108 words, passed 50k, kind of brought the bit of story I was writing to some sort of resolution and won NaNoWriMo for the 11th time.

I’m trying to take today off, but I keep mentally going over all of the things I neglected to do this past month, so good to know I’m firmly back to my anxiety, I guess. Maybe I’ll write them in my bullet journal. That usually helps.

Here are some pictures I took this month:

A cutie.

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NaNoWriMo 2016: Days 4-6

309. Thankful for relationships

309. Thankful for relationships

Period brain chewed me up on Friday and spit me back out on Saturday (good to get that over with early in the month, though) so I didn’t write at all on Friday. Instead we went to Target and looked at Christmas stuff (I’m 100% there already this year) and had an India Palace date night. Indian food is the best of everything.

310. Thankful for memories

310. Thankful for memories

Saturday I was feeling a little bit better, still felt like my head was full of cotton, but pretty functional in all ways but the creative. I did a lot of thinking, brainstorming and plotting but I only got 323 words added to my novel. Better that than nothing, though. Always good to at least keep the novel in mind when you’re having an off day during NaNoWriMo. I felt good about the fact that I wasn’t beating myself up about it. I also donated on Saturday, which always gives me a kick in the pants. Plus I discovered YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR USERNAME now! Check it out. I literally hugged my laptop.. We ended the day with a quality Luke Cage binge watch. SO GOOD.

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Need to post the rest of my Halloween photoshoots here so you can have some context on that.

Sunday was much better. I started the day with some quality procrastination. I made a book cover and changed my avatar on the NaNoWriMo site. Eventually I jumped into some sprints and wrote 2,816 words total. I also talked some plans out with Shaun and got lots of new ideas. I’m still about a day behind in terms of word count, but I’m going to try to catch that up today, get on track, get back ahead, finish early per usual. Fingers crossed. Here’s a favorite line from yesterday to end things on:

“I told you. I can make any kind of canned soup, too. Haven’t met a canned soup that I wasn’t equal to.”

8486 / 50000 words. 17% done!