I started my second 365 self portrait project on my 23rd birthday. I wrote more about 2008 on this post. I was feeling so inspired when I started this project. Then it became a strange conduit for grief. I was glad to have it, and I’m glad to have this record of one of the toughest year of my life, but it’s still hard to write about. I thought I was doing better than I was. In retrospect, most of what I remember of 2009 was napping on the couch, watching Fellowship of the Ring over and over, and crying.